Relative normalcy that is. I’ve not had the best of schedules over the last few weeks. Between staying up whole nights or working long days of 14-16 hours and having a completely variable schedule with nights and days flip flopping all over the place, I’m ready for the next few weeks where I get to have a more normal schedule. Still long hours, but predictable “normal” hours that are mostly during regular business hours.
As fun as the last few weeks were for me, I’m looking forward to being able to follow my circadian rhythm more closely and knowing that I can sleep consistently every night. I am looking forward to calming my body down and having a schedule (as much as I resist having a schedule…somehow that whole idea of being scheduled makes me feel boxed in and robotic). I’m pretty sure that between the stress of things that are going on in my life outside work and the unpredictable work schedule with very erratic sleep patterns not to mention the huge sleep deficit have probably spiked my cortisol to unacceptable levels.
I am also looking forward to checking out the farmer’s market. I thought about doing that today, but I didn’t end up doing that. Why you ask? Well, for one thing I was coming off a night shift and even though I was feeling relatively awake after having gotten a good few hours of sleep (the first and last time I got sleep while on an overnight…thank you wonderful mission control person), I wasn’t feeling up to driving or going by myself. Going new places by myself requires a certain amount of energy and I wasn’t up to it today. Granted, I’m sad that I won’t be indulging in wonderful, season, local produce, but I think I’ll be okay for another week.
I have managed to continue eating paleo with some modifications. I added in full fat yogurt the last few weeks because I wanted to get my fruit in and I hate eating my fruit plain. I don’t know why, but the yogurt helps me eat berries and the like. I also put some honey in my yogurt. I know that it probably spiked my blood sugar some, but oh well. I was also drinking coffee pretty consistently. Not exactly the baseline I want to be at, but I do love coffee and it was so necessary to keep me awake. Other than that, I stayed completely paleo. Yay!
The really weird thing about eating paleo is that now that I’m in the hospital, I find myself faced with situations where I really want to tell people that they’re wrong. I had someone senior to me tell me one morning about how terrible it was that people had no concept of calories and good nutrition and the like and I really had to sit on my hands and tune out a little bit because I just don’t subscribe to conventional wisdom anymore. Actually, I never really fully embraced the whole conventional anything. I’m a funny duck in a very traditional thinking and acting field. (I do wonder what I got myself into just about every minute of every day…but that’s really not a story for now.)
Not only are patients having weight problems, but almost everyone that I have worked with recently has talked about their weight, eating habits, and diets. One of the things that I really don’t want to happen to me in my career path is for me to gain weight. I gain weight every time I’m in school. I think it must be all the stress and the sitting. Whatever it is, I’m heavier when I’m going to school.
Last year, I started on a quest to make sure that I was keeping things in check and staying healthy. I went on a crazy spree of working out twice a day, being at the gym 6 days a week, and eating an almost purely vegetarian, high fiber diet. At first I was feeling stronger, but then after a couple of months, I felt like I was getting fatter and not leaner.
With paleo, I eat what I want (that is within the boundaries of paleo) and even if I don’t get a chance to exercise, I still do okay. I don’t feel terrible. I’m hoping these next few weeks I’ll find a better equilibrium and get some walking in. Maybe some other soothing exercise. Sprints and weights will get their due. In addition, I scheduled myself a massage. The one great thing about being at school is that I have a great massage therapist. It’s one of the few things that is getting me through school. I know it’s an indulgence, but it’s so necessary for me. Not only is it relaxing, but it helps me sleep, which is huge for me.
Well, this has been sort of a rambling post and I really do need to do some serious work and then get my butt to bed so I can get my body back into a good sleep schedule. I can’t wait.
Till next time. I hope everyone is well.